Saturday, September 10, 2011


Ten years seems to have gone by in a heartbeat.  In ten years I have had a child, moved twice, survived a death-defying car accident, opened and closed my own business, put the world's most faithful and loving dog to sleep and had a best friend die in childbirth.  I have had a rough ten years.  But at least I have had those ten years.  2,977 people have not.  That does not include the number of miltary deaths that can be attributed to the "war on terror."  That's just the number of people who ceased to exist in one brief moment.

I wanted to write something profound and moving in honor of this day.  But the truth of the matter is, I can't.  There is so much being said about this day and so much being presented on tv and radio that it is overwhelming and in some way, at least to me, lessens the true meaning of this day.  To me this day is about taking stock of how much life has changed in 10 years.  I look at my daughter who was born in November of 2001 and I see how much it has changed.  She has never lived in a world without color-coded terror threat levels.  When we fly she automatically takes off her shoes as we reach the scanning area because she has never known anything else.  Words like "extremist" and "Osama" have been a part of her lexicon since entering school. 

When I was 9 going on 10 I was staying by myself at home.  I was walking myself to school.  I was young and naive and didn't know there were people who hated Americans and I certainly didn't know what a "dirty bomb" was.  I was in 5th grade learning "Deep in the Heart of Texas" in chorus and playing Bombardment in gym.  My daughter is learning about the Twin Towers and the Pentagon in school and has friends whose fathers are in Afghanistan right now.  My daughter lives in a world where I can not protect her from everything and things are just so much scarier.. 

So I think I will just end this post here.  I remember exactly where I was and what I was doing the moment I first heard what had happened on 9-11-2001.  But I shared that on my blog 2 years ago and this year is not about where I was.  This year is about 2,977 who can't share their stories.  Instead of sharing my story again, consider this my moment of silence.  Consider their stories, or lack thereof....


RV Vagabonds said...

Amen, sister.

catherine said...

When I watch clips of the happenings on 9/11, I feel I can't breathe. It's like a cold icy finger running down my back.

I was watching a commentary today and they were talking about how the memorial has turned into a big consumerist trap. They have pens and keychains and T shirts and every made in china touristy crap out there, and using peoples grief to cash in for the big bucks. There is even a twin towers wine.
Its discusting and disrespectful. I have totally lost my faith in humanity. What do you think of this? Am I stupid to be bothered by this?

Living in Muddy Waters said...

Catherine, I hate the commercialism too. I have a piece of the Berlin Wall that was given to me by a friend who was there when it fell, but I understand you can buy pieces now. I guess people just need something to hold on to in cases like this. Something physical that allows others to start a conversation with them. But I just wish there was another way to get that need filled without the plastic junk.